dream--thursday, january 15th, 2009
my alarm goes off everyday at a certain time. sometimes i have it set for 7, sometimes 9. nothing later though. i dont like to sleep to the whole morning. today it was set for 8. so after my night long slumber i awake abruptly at 8 by my alarm clock, which happens to be my cell phone, which happens to blare Iron & Wine’s Flightless bird… (it’s from the twilight soundtrack)..its rather plesant and its a comforting way to wake up for the day. well seeing as how today is yet another day of my seemingly endless winter break, a break in which i have absolutely nothing to do with my time; therefore, i can sleep allll day….i opt to dismiss the alarm and fall back asleep. here is the nonsense that my brain managed to for in a two-hour span of rem deepsleep….
i was going to a private school. i had no friends but i managed to meet up with four other girls. they were nice and didnt look like the kind of girls who didnt have friends. one looked like she was middle-eastern, maybe Lebanese. another was petite and pretty with straight-short blonde hair. the other girl was ali. not the ali i see everyday. the ali i go to college with, the one who played soccer too with me. until i quit the team. the last girl i cant remember a thing about her. she must not have been that interesting.
we’re standing outside this house in the woods and its filled with everyone from our school. music is blaring and lights and flickering. we pass a teacher/parent as were walking towards it and she tells us they are having a rave. we decided we didnt want to go because we were scared and new and besides we werent even invited. so instead we sit out in the woods on an old rotting sandbox. the five of us, no the three of us sit there waiting for the party to end because we didnt know what else to do. i say three because the lebanese girl went off somewhere tonight with her sister and ali decided to go to the rave…. which is ironic because ali from college would never do such a thing in reality…..Eventually the lebenese-girl returns with her sister who, freakishly looks exactly like her except a foot taller, but they dont say a word to us they simply pass us by in the woods….
while we sit and wait, me, the blonde and the unmemorable girl, blondie comes down with a relentless set of hiccups. you know how everyone does something a little different from everyone else. like for example my friend jordan sneezes like 5 or 6 times all in a row. she never just has one sneeze. and my friend emily’s mom, paula, when she sneezes it always sounds like she’s saying “achoooimah!” it’s actually pretty funny. anyhoozer, so this girl, blondie gets a case of rapidfire hiccups. its one right after the other right after the other after the other…im surprised she has time to breathe let alone talk.
i wake up. its 8:40 and i hear a familiar noise. turns out hiccup girl’s hiccups were really just an obnoxious bird chirpping, no chattering, outside my window. buhh! back to sleep…
i return to la-la-land to find that me and the unmemorable girl have ditched the blonde and are now at wal-mart. wal-mart is packed full of kids from my new school, therefore i didnt recognize any of them. we split up for a bit and i head towards the jewelry section for some reason and find a necklace that i really like. in my memory it looked like one of those cheap plastic colorful ones that i might have worn in elementary school..well i simply slid it into my pocket and walk away. i proceed to stealthly steal another store item i have no idea why dream-me would have such disregard for the law, i have’nt ever shoplifted in my life and the only thing ive ever stolen were totsie rolls from my second grade teacher’s candy jar…eventually i got caught.
so after im down being a petty theif, i run into unmemorable girl who is all distraught over a boy who keeps harassing her in the underwear section. so i follow her to the panties isle and dream-guttsy-me goes right up to the perps and lets them have it. i went off on the boy, screaming and pointing and backing him right into one of the racks….im sure this might have resembled brooke from the real world. you know the won who kin d of freaked to the point of looking like a demon, possesed and freaky and all on national television. you go girl!…my roommate does a great impression of her…anyway all my ranting and raving worked because the little emasculated boy ran away and i decided to go look at the coat section
in the coat section i found coats, thats a given, and a big long wooden table, surrounded by big long wooden chairs filled with many different people, some of whom i knew and some of whom i did not. turns out i was in a board meeting for the coat company itself which was run by a gentle looking old guy. i recognized my friend toli occupying one of the chairs. he must of been some exec of something for the company. apparently, the company was at risk of going bankrupt and the boss suspected someone on the board was selling them out to the competion. accusations are flung around the room, the big room (mind you were still in wal-mart) and a verdict is made that toli is the rat! he bursts out of his chair and rips off his suit. shirtless he runs from the coat section and i follow in shock that he could have been so dishonest…
…wal-mart turns into the soft sand of the beach and toli keeps running further and further down the shoreline. i yell for him to stop and people around me pick up on the chase and eventually someone knocks him down. i pin him to the ground by sitting on his stomach and holding his arms down. i demand that he explains himself but all he asks desperately if i will still love him after all of this. at this point i see john and nate standing by us waiting for us. i tell my guilty friend no and run to john who comforts me and takes me back in the direction i came from. that must have been hard for john to do because he’s toli’s friend too and i feel selfish for making him walk away from his buddy.
as i walk the shore i find members of the girls and guys soccer team. we must be on our training trip because i see other athlete’s from other teams on the beach too. i keep walking towards the end, or the beginning of the beach. i’m not sure but its the place where the rocks form a long chain starting on the sand and continuing straight out to see. here’s where i se the swim team and then immediately i see you….im referring you as you because you are currently the one who’s usually on my mind. you were you in another post i titled you. it just fits doesnt it?….you were super friendly and inviting and pull me into the water with you. no worries at this point i managed to switch effortlessly from my school girl uniform to a swimsuit..cool how dreamland works huh?..anyhoozer, you smile and laugh with me like not a day has passed since you left me hurting anmd this doesnt phase me because i laugh and smile back. the waves are turning rough now and the sky has gone from blue to dark grey and an endless puff of fog rolls in, consuming us. in the darkness ahead we see two lights shining barely through the fog.. then we can see a bit more clearly now and there are two boats..a giant tanker and a tiny tug boat merely 100 yards offshore. they are huge and dark and intimidating and everyone nearby runs out of the water scrared by the dark looming monsters of the sea.
back on shore..your roommate ehren is digging in the sand, whic now has a weird blue tint to it. he pulls out a paintbrush and proceeds to paint the sand blue.
you stay with your team as i leave to find mine and somewhere along the way i get pushed into a wave and i fight my way back to land. i become tangled with the falling crest and tumble my way back to air, back to solid ground. no sooner did i find that i lost a tooth in the battle. what a shame i think, to have lost that tooth. i could have lost any other tooth but why this one, i liked this one. it was pointed and made me feel like a vampire…
i run up the shore towards the road which turns into a huge gymnasium with many locker rooms. i find the one given to the soccer team and search for my coach….actually going to my coach in reality would not have been a possibility seeing as how i quit the team and haven’t spoken a word to him since, but i guess in dream world anything goes…i find him and show him my bloody tooth and empty hole in my smile. he retrieves a book and finds the location of the nearest dentist…which conveniently is located somewhere in the gymnasium building. we go up steps, through halls, down steps and so on and son forth and finally find the dentists office but he is not there. the numbers on his door are some weird kind of code. they are not a telephone number but each digit has a circle around it signifying something. i think the numbers are so different because we are in another state. pennsylvania has normal phone numbers, but state’s like california and florida (the places with the beaches) must have some weird numbering system that only californians and floridians know how to work..
my coach is stumped and tells me he doesnt know what to tell me and walks away. i stand in front of the vacant dentist office and stare down at my sad looking vampire tooth. i close my eyes and let my tongue investigate the empty space in my chompers and i think to myself, maybe this won’t be so bad…
and as my tongue grazes over the front of my teeth, the hollowed space is magically restored and all my teeth are resent and accounted for, meanwhile my eyes lift open and i stare at the sunlit crach in my ceiling. i am awake now. i have all my teeth. and you are still you.
it is 10:39.
